mothers, deans and maids

1. My friend and I were at my mom's (not my real one but some weird creepy one). We were lying on the bed and she asked us to cover our eyes as she went into some secret place to give us a surprise. I kept one eye open thought. She went into a closet and brought us some very expensive drinks in tea bottles, which looked like it had perfume insignias in it and a sachet of something floating inside. She said you pour it over oranges and it tastes delicious. Later I was with my real mom, and she was showing me all these great bags. I thought they were real gucci bags but she said they were fakes. I asked her how I could get one and she said she bought them in california.
2. I was roommates with these 2 academic deans and they had a maid who was a former dean. The maid asked if I wanted her to go through my stuff, and I said I did NOT want that. Later one of the dean roommates pointed out the maid had gotten accolades for her innovative ways of organizing people's stuff. She showed me a video brochure, but it included pictures of naked women shaving. Very weird.

statue, book, forgot a lot of it

1. I'm reading a book, and the author, who seems wholesome and sweet, has pictures of herself in the back that become increasing pornographic as i flipped back.
2. The woman had a huge celebration of her birthday and someone had created a huge, lifelike statue of her with a mattress in the middle that bounced. Even her white, patchy pink skin was emulated perfectly from a distance. When you got up close you could see it was actually pink graffiti. She was sitting on the mattress enjoying it while other people gave her praises. At one point she got off the mattress and some people decided to try it out. I was sitting on it when some young guys started stepping on it with their shoes. I asked them to take off their shoes and they ignored me. I started yelling and they decided to just walk away. I yelled Fuck You !!! really loud at them as they walked away.

anabaptist queens college and obnoxious neighbors

I was somehow connected with a new innovative college in NYC called anabaptist queens college. It was all about encouraging creativity and learning through innovative, unusual teaching methods. There was a video brochure that showed student testimonials of how they were able to complete museum quality sculpture and other fantastic projects. One picture I remember were a bunch of dummies tossed in a bix box with the real artists, smiling from inside the box. But the college was having a hard time with accountability and the state was threatening to shut it down. I believe the video was a response to this threatened shutdown.

I was in a dorm or apartment with a lot of young people, working on a report. Dave and some friends wanted to go. I said they had to wait, because I had to finish what I was doing and put on my shoes. After a while they asked if I was ready, and I still was not. Some random neighbor living above me in a loft started yelling at me about this, and I ranted back at him very angrily - "you don't know my background or anything about me!!!!! how dare you start yelling at me like that!"

nadine and two lecherous men

I was at a new job where two men, an old one and a young one, began making aggressive passes at me after I had worked with them for a while and trusted them.
The building we were in had a lobby. Nadine L was one of the lobby hostesses (I remember most her change after moving to London, adopting a british accent within a year and transforming herself into what she wanted to be, a Euro siren - now she's working in Europe in marketing). I asked her to store a big package wrapped in a white bag for me. I don't remember what it was.
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A career wish dream?

wedding and rocking boat

we were having an engagement party but dave was in dan singer's body - but it was dave. bn was there too, with an and he was friendly. i believed we would even be able to exchange email.
switch to a rocking boat on the water... it was all rusted metal. not sure if the party was on that boat or if it was separate from the dream before that.

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i had been thinking about how i'd been a jerk to ds and felt bad about it. (not as bad as bn had been but similar. good to realize that i've hurt others too). i found a pic of him online - he's doing great, working in intl trade for a big company, looks great too. mom said he's married. at one time before i met dave, i felt pissed that i'd dismissed a good guy like him. i'm happy for him though.
i was feeling depressed yesterday, felt like i'd not lived up to mom's and dad's expectations (though in many ways dad's success was luck as well as hard work), as dave and i walked past all the fancy places along WEA, and the new trump building on 72nd street. dammmit, i would like to have a choice to live there or somewhere fancy like that... for the beauty, the peace of mind that a nice clean environmt gives. dave talked to me about my mental models ... he was very helpful. he is a healer. he also put his hands on me like reiki and unintentionally gave me the energy to get up and walk outside to the reservoir with him (though i still felt like i couldn't run)

Pie and a Cult place

1. Jill Stephenson, a bulimic girl from my class at HA was teaching me, with her mother, how to make a pie and fill it. The pie was more like a cake. They sliced the cake in a circle near the edge and lifted off the cake edges. They then pressed filling through a crack that they opened in the middle, and it seemed very inefficient.
2. Two men were forcing me along, pulling me by my shirt. I struggled but they would not let go. I said quietly,'Help,' to passers by. One brave group took hold of me and refused to let me go with the men, but I asked them to let me go as if nothing happened and to call the police instead, because I knew someone could really get hurt as the men had guns. We arrived at a large area which was filled with cult followers. People who had been forced into this place, like me, were leading meetings. They looked at me as if they were as in much pain as me but recognizing there was nothing that can be done. The men continued to drag me along.

I told susan about this dream, the day before she performed sekh em on me and also gave me a 2nd reading.

This entire summer I worked on a huge data project that was tremendously important for sales. It took up my whole life practically but I enjoyed the challenge. My relationship with DM has been good and getting better. It's been almost 2 years. He now wants to marry me. I think I want to marry him too.