convos
2 good conversations last night. one with h, one with j.

h: specific plan of action for the year. plan: bring MCAT book with me everywhere (get from work), get fit, change of perspective. see med school and academia as an "adventure," an opportunity to do something for the world; see discipline as something that gets you where you want to be though you hate it at the time...

j: being open about feeling like he didn't get where i was coming from (never talking about med school plans, for example- the process of finding out if this is something i can really do) led to other productive conversation. also a review of what our needs are and what's hindering them: topics: mothering, "feminine power," openness in all areas, numbness/repression, emotionally open unavailability, for example.