more stimulation
through avocado lite, i found a creative man's blog
stream of consciousness "i want":
comfort
salvation
inner travel
a lime
stimulation
found the avocadolite web site again. inspiration.
happy energy
there are several types of people whose energy makes me crazy happy: examples
avocado lite
sinta writing
hernan intense talk-thinking
derek obsessed doodling
bobby interpreting and analysing
j teaching craft of chord making
amber photo craft kindling
paranormal
steve filmmaking
inner feeling right now
me.... i'm so dead bored at this time--------- energy is still and waiting.
Thursday, January 16, 2003
Thursday, January 09, 2003
Monday, January 06, 2003
Friday, January 03, 2003
convos
2 good conversations last night. one with h, one with j.
h: specific plan of action for the year. plan: bring MCAT book with me everywhere (get from work), get fit, change of perspective. see med school and academia as an "adventure," an opportunity to do something for the world; see discipline as something that gets you where you want to be though you hate it at the time...
j: being open about feeling like he didn't get where i was coming from (never talking about med school plans, for example- the process of finding out if this is something i can really do) led to other productive conversation. also a review of what our needs are and what's hindering them: topics: mothering, "feminine power," openness in all areas, numbness/repression, emotionally open unavailability, for example.
2 good conversations last night. one with h, one with j.
h: specific plan of action for the year. plan: bring MCAT book with me everywhere (get from work), get fit, change of perspective. see med school and academia as an "adventure," an opportunity to do something for the world; see discipline as something that gets you where you want to be though you hate it at the time...
j: being open about feeling like he didn't get where i was coming from (never talking about med school plans, for example- the process of finding out if this is something i can really do) led to other productive conversation. also a review of what our needs are and what's hindering them: topics: mothering, "feminine power," openness in all areas, numbness/repression, emotionally open unavailability, for example.
Thursday, January 02, 2003
my inner flip shown to me
i have been reading the philippine author f.sionil jose, Dusk (formerly Po-on). it's about an Ilokano family, which is where my mom's family originates in the Philippines (they're from santa maria(?) in ilocus sur). it is such a moving book for me, because jose describes the common characteristics of Ilokanos- not nec. known for intelligence, but incredibly loyal, and loving- but when stirred to anger, watch out! the characters remind me so much of mom and her family, and i see some of their qualities in myself too. i don't really think much of how a "people" have certain qualities, but i definitely see qualities passed along our family lines.
i have been reading the philippine author f.sionil jose, Dusk (formerly Po-on). it's about an Ilokano family, which is where my mom's family originates in the Philippines (they're from santa maria(?) in ilocus sur). it is such a moving book for me, because jose describes the common characteristics of Ilokanos- not nec. known for intelligence, but incredibly loyal, and loving- but when stirred to anger, watch out! the characters remind me so much of mom and her family, and i see some of their qualities in myself too. i don't really think much of how a "people" have certain qualities, but i definitely see qualities passed along our family lines.