The super opened both of our doors so I could get more heat into my apartment. I was emb bc I was in bed under the covers w. No clothes but he was a gentleman.

We were at d's acr, in the bathroom. D said he wanted to go to my apt. He started gathering stuff to bring over. It hadn't dawned on me that he really wanted to do it and def not at that moment. I asked what he was doing and he said me that we really were going to head over. ( is this dream based on a wish, or on intuition?)

Realization that I don't think much about pleasure.

Asked mom to throw Xmas party so I could invite b: and have real bonding among our friends. chem as presents

The aerosols- name of the band

1. Mercedes
2. Eating ch withb mom
3. Free concert, dad, jj. Get tix later Robert, girl get tix
4, north Carolina cottage jj terrifies remembers name. Bathro finding tix in dads vest, woman waiting to use
6. Back with Robert to office to meet fam. Lobby entrance has elevator.

3 dreams. 1 twin.
1. At a conference, I take a homely servant down to the hotel basement for some action. When I came back up, the hotel mgr demanded I pay for a room and a guest fee.
D: He dreams we are in a house and he's telling me about a hot chick. I have a servant summon her. I ask the girl questions, and don't like how the servant is talking and I put my finger to my lips.
2. Dr L. starting to make the moves in me in front of other people. We are sitting in a circle with one other person, a man.

Twin dreams

Twin dreams with D today:

1) D dreamt he was at the house he where grew up in Ohio, with me and a cute black and white, medium size dog (buddy??). There were dominatrixes in the house too,
running an S&M business. He was upset with them and wanted them to leave, because he was afraid they would let the dog out. I was a dominatrix too but not with them. I wasn't doing dominatrix stuff during the dream. (When I asked him what he thought it was about, and he said he didn't know and wondered what I thought. I asked what he thought again, and he said maybe that he likes dogs because the dog was there. (that dog is very representative of his wanting relationships.)

2) I dreamt that we were at a house, staying with a bunch of people, and my brother was there too. We were sitting together in a room, talking about all kinds of things and reminiscing. Then Dan had to go to school (we were all Columbia U students) and he put on a white wool jacket to go. I was sad and missed him because we were just
starting to prepare a party and he wasn't there. A bunch of dominatrix-like girls were preparing the bbq, and I got annoyed because one of them brought the outdoor cleaning broom/bin inside to the kitchen. In the midst of organizing the BBQ, they decided to move it to the front yard.
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New relationship issues... D told me that he doesn't want me to assume we'll hang every Saturday, because he's afraid of routine and getting bored. He also he fears being alone, yet is so comfortable being alone, so he needs a lot of space. I get so mad but then he's so happy when I've given him space, and I like being around him when he's happy. Ugh. Relationships.